Thursday, January 6, 2011

A New Year

Well...I failed miserably at my goal for last year. I guess I was not thinking about how quickly life changes with our situation and that when I set the goal all was running smoothly. Shortly thereafter (in Feb) everything fell apart with Kevin again and we had to leave our home in FL and head to TX again. It will be a whole year in just a month since we came here and it looks like we will be here a while yet.

But anyway, I still scrapped more last year than the previous and I think that this year I am just going to lower the goal - making it more attainable. I have also decided to set some 'nudge' goals; like creating 2 PageMaps layouts every month.

So tonight I am hoping to work on my Ali Edwards "One Little Word 2011" layout. The word I have chosen this year is OPEN. Somehow during the last 2 1/2 years I have closed myself off to everything. I haven't really had a choice as my lifestyle taking care of Kevin is all-consuming, but I need to start making time for myself. I need to OPEN myself up to the real world; to making new friends, to financial possibilities to just flat out being open to changing the person I have become. It's not going to be easy, but I have to at least try. I think I just retreat into my shell because it's hard watching everyone out there in the world do what they want, when they want to. I don't have those freedoms; and yet it's what my son so valiantly fought for over there in the desert. Ironic, huh? My son fights for our country's freedom and I lose mine completely in order to take care of him for the rest of his life.

Ack! Well, this is not going to be a reflective post - it's going to be a new year, new beginning post.

Let's hope I can actually scrap tonight and get the new scrappy year started...

1 comment:

  1. I do hope that you find peace within yourself this year. I hope that Kevin's year is better as well. You also have to start making time for yourself without the guilt. You deserve to be happy. And although you have one of the toughest jobs in America, being a mom and caregiver, remember to take care of yourself as well. It is not easy, your time is consumed with responsibilities, but please try. Find Leslie again. She really isn't
    lost, she just walked off the path for a little while. I will pray for you and your family. And next time you are back in Florida, lets get together one day. You could come over and get lost in my scrap studio. That would be fun!!